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Archive for January 2008

the bigger question

Posted by: moedee on: January 30, 2008

So there are two lifestyle events happening this weekend that I’m sort of interested in attending. But I’m also reluctant because of the recent breakup. I don’t want to go and be emotionally vulnerable and mistake sex for genuine interest/attraction/affection. And I’m also uncertain whether I would date someone I met in [...]

It’s over now

Posted by: moedee on: January 28, 2008

definitely. T called and we talked and it’s done. Well, it was done for me before but I think he was hoping something would change, that we could keep something going. But he didn’t want anything less than what we had so he settled for nothing. At least I got to [...]

A little sad and wondering

Posted by: moedee on: January 26, 2008

if breaking with T really was the right decision. Well, I know it was the right decision but I feel sad. He was a big part of my life for the last two and half months. We talked sometimes twice a day, he left me happy little messages, brought me flowers, sent [...]

This is the first time

Posted by: moedee on: January 24, 2008

I’ve ever thought about breaking up with someone, even though the relationship is reasonably healthy. There are things I like about my relationship with T, mainly that he really likes me and does all kinds of nice things. And he’s a good guy and I like him too. But I’m just not [...]

Receive the gift

Posted by: moedee on: January 22, 2008

I’m not sure what I’m writing about here but I’m going to type a bit anyway. My encounter with G seems to have changed things for me in some way. So much so that I’m feeling much more emotionally connected to it than I ever expected. And all I can think about [...]

Weird co-worker stuff and T

Posted by: moedee on: January 17, 2008

Today is an icky-vibe day when it comes to a couple of my co-workers. Two people who I’m fairly close to and there’s weirdness happening. First, I’ve been trying to plan a collaborative project with J and it’s been messy from the start. I got a good idea of the project concept [...]

Is the day over yet?

Posted by: moedee on: January 1, 2008

Okay, it’s 8:20 a.m. and I’m already asking if the day is over. Okay, I’ve been asking that question since Monday morning so it’s been a long week. I’m exhausted – mentally, emotionally, physically, spiritually. These last two weeks have been good, but have felt incredibly demanding. No, back that up. [...]