Today is an icky-vibe day when it comes to a couple of my co-workers. Two people who I’m fairly close to and there’s weirdness happening. First, I’ve been trying to plan a collaborative project with J and it’s been messy from the start. I got a good idea of the project concept but we were never able to go over details/logistics so I had a completely different idea of what she needed than what she really needed.

The worst part is, I think she thinks she was really clear and that I just didn’t get it. And I’m feeling defensive because I tried to schedule meetings with her several times and she just couldn’t do it. Not only that, she didn’t have a project outline or description until a few days ago – pretty late for me to make significant changes in what I had planned. Not that my planning was all that great, but it does take a little maneuvering to move stuff around & such. So the vibes from her feel pretty upset and I’m really sorry but it’s just the way things go sometimes – it’s our first time planning something like this and I think we both made assumptions about what the other person knew. And she’s one of my favorite people so it feels extra ick.

The second one is also yucky but for a different reason. Another favorite colleague made a racist comment to one of our students, in front of me and my entire class yesterday. I want to talk to him about it and I think he knows it. Sadly enough, it appears that this isn’t the first incident, although until yesterday, I wouldn’t have believed that he could say such a thing. So I’ll talk to him although I wish it had never happened.

Lastly, I mentioned to T that maybe we could go to the beach for a trip. And I mentioned a hotel I was interested in staying at. He immediately said we had to go for two days and that he wanted to stay in a hotel he thinks is perfect. Thank goodness I retained enough presence of mind to say “let’s talk about this tomorrow” and make a phone date for today. I only want to stay one night so maybe we can go and he can stay after I leave. Who knows? If we can’t work it out, we just won’t go right now. And there’s more about him but I’ll write it out later.