I haven’t posted in a long time. The holidays were better than I expected, got to spend a lot of quality time with Sroyce, which was lovely. I also spent a hell of a lot of time driving around, socializing. I’m finding that socializing takes more and more of my energy – it doesn’t revitalize me like it used to. I don’t feel depressed anymore, but I’ve felt like I’ve needed an inordinate amount of sleep the last few weeks.
I think it’s partly all the running around, but it’s also just mental and emotional wear down. These last 9 months have been difficult, to say the least. The last 3 were probably the worst. So maybe this is just recovery time – time to rest before slogging back onto the road to survival. Even with my newly acquired perspective on opportunity as a way to create experiences, it still feels overwhelming.
I have to hope that 2011 will bring a measure of stability and security. I have to believe that I am loved and supported – by the universe, my friends, and my family. I have to believe in myself – in my ability to create the life I want and deserve.
